Last Month of the year 2014

December,

You're last, please make my 2014 worth something remembering.

Last year, 

I remember December was the month I tried to escape. 

Escape what? My first heartbreak.

I know it's not often that people talk about their heartbreaking moments, maybe because it wasn't a real heartbreak or maybe they don't want to remember it or maybe they just don't care or maybe they still can't get over it.

I'm pretty okay to talk about my first heartbreak now, not because I've moved on, it's jus that I've accepted the fact that  change is constant and there are some things that needs to change, some may leave, no matter how much we beg them to stay, I've learned now that when people want to leave, let them. After all, it's their life, and there will be moments on your life that you would want to leave too, sometimes there's no reason at all but maybe no reason to stay is a good reason to leave? Maybe.

I remember a good poetry by Lang leave which pretty much sums it all. everything I felt. there's so many words, quotes, poetry to describe everything I felt but I wrote something, a summary of a year in love and heartbreak, maybe I'll post it soon.

  there's still so many reasons for us to be happy, we just have to accept that everything happens for a reason although it takes time to figure out what the reason is, we just have to live in the moment and enjoy the little things in life. God has a purpose for every plan He have on our lives.

        we're still friends. maybe all the love's still there but I'm not expecting anything now.  I'm trusting everything in God and hopefully someday, I'll learn to love again. :)